The Night I Finally Understood Why My Body Kept Getting Sick

The Night I Finally Understood Why My Body Kept Getting Sick

Hermosa, I want to tell you about the season of my life when my body simply would not let me ignore it anymore.

For years I ran on the same formula so many of us MujerPreneurs run on: push through, show up anyway, figure out the money later, deal with the body later. I told myself that was strength. I called it discipline. What it actually was, was avoidance wearing a very productive costume.

My body did not agree with the plan. Health issue after health issue kept showing up, and no matter how many doctors I saw or how many changes I made on the surface, something underneath stayed exactly the same. I was managing symptoms. I wasn't touching the root.

It was in meditation, sitting with my spiritual advisor, that the pattern finally cracked open. She kept bringing me back to my first chakra — the energy center of safety and the physical body — and asking me one simple question: when in your life did you learn that safety was not guaranteed?

I didn't have to think hard. The answer was already living in my body. It had just never had a name before.

Then she took me to my second chakra — creativity, emotion, relationships, and money — and asked almost the same question in a different language: where do you still believe there isn't enough?

Hermosa, I sat with that question longer than I expected to. Because the truth is, I still am sitting with it. This is not a story where I healed my money wound and now I'm here to hand you the five steps. My second chakra is still my edge. Every week, my spiritual advisor gives me something new to sit with in meditation — some new place where I'm gripping instead of flowing, some new place where fear has quietly rearranged itself to look like “being responsible” or “being realistic.”

What I can tell you is this: the moment I understood that my health issues and my money issues were coming from the same root, I stopped trying to fix them separately. I stopped treating my body as an inconvenience standing between me and my to-do list, and I started treating it as the most honest advisor I have. My body doesn't lie to me the way my anxious mind sometimes does. It doesn't dress fear up as strategy. It just tells me, plainly, where I am not safe yet — inside myself.

These days, my healing looks less dramatic than I expected. It's not a single breakthrough moment — it's smaller than that. It's pausing before I say yes to something out of guilt. It's noticing when my shoulders creep up toward my ears during a client call, and asking why. It's letting a wave of anxiety about money move through me instead of immediately reaching for a spreadsheet to “fix” the feeling. Slow, unglamorous, repeated work. But it's real.

I think about this a lot in relation to us, as a community of Latina and BIPOC MujerPreneurs. So many of us were raised believing that safety comes from doing it all alone — from being the strong one, the capable one, the one who doesn't need help. But if the root chakra teaches us anything, it's that safety was never actually meant to be an individual achievement. It was always meant to be built in circles, in community, in collaboration instead of competition. Juntas Podemos Mas is not just something nice to say. It might be one of the truest things I know about healing.

I wrote more about this whole journey — the doctors, the meditations, the slow unlearning — in a place made just for this.

Come find it, it's the first link waiting for you. →

And every week, I'm writing more of this in real time, as I work through it myself.

Chula, if your body has been trying to tell you something, this is your permission to finally listen.

Juntas podemos más.

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